I Just Need to Post This

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Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don’t answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you’re asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She’s screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that “Mommy is crying and sissy won’t wake up.” Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what’s going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at school, there’s an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular girls, they think of all the things they’ve said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can’t help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex boyfriend, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you.. He can’t handle it. He breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They’re sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? She’s in shock. She can’t believe it. She knew what you were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad… Bad enough for you to end it. She can’t cry, she can’t feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It’s a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone’s crying, your little brother still doesn’t know you killed yourself, he’s too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn’t stop for days. It’s two years later. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn’t know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with girls. Your friends all go into depression. Your best friend? She tried to kill herself. She didn’t succeed like you did, but she tried…your brother? He finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed all day. People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don’t just affect you. They affect everyone. Don’t end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can’t get better if you give up.

I’m here for absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who you are. Even if we’ve NEVER talked before, I’m here for you. Copy and paste this as your status to show people there are people out there that care. Let's see who actually read all of it.

For anyone that feels this way 😢💜
Could 1 friend, please copy and repost (not share)? We are trying to demonstrate that someone's always listening.
#SuicideAwareness 1-800-273-8255, Britain: www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Suicide/…


For the love of god this is accurate to what would happen. I'm absolutely serious when I say I'm always here if you need me guys. Please please please! Never believe no one will listen or will ever care to listen to your problems because I will listen to you, and I will care about you, and I will worry about you, and I will cry for you. You will always have someone to turn to even if you think you don't because there's always someone who cares.
I found this like 4 months ago on Facebook and I wanted to share it but I couldn't find it again and thanks to 13BatScorpion95 I can finally post this.
Stay strong guys
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God.. I've always been afraid of this. My best friend she cuts herself. I think she even tried to commit suicide once. I remember a year ago someone told me she was in the hospital due to her lung problems and I just lost it. I don't know what I'd do without her. It is sad for me to admit I thought about suicide once "All the pain will finally be gone" is how far I got. Never wrote a letter never picked up the needle or knife. To this day I still wonder how I get by, twice I've thought about running away into the woods. And now my brother talks about suicide It just shakes me. But I know I can't leave them, they have been though so much all ready. Our family is broken and many times our hearts. I just look for something that truly keeps me going and that is hope. Hope to find people who can be there and save me. I know deep down I don't want to end my life, cause so much pain. I may be in a very dark loop these past years but life is just too beautiful and rare to throw away.